my heart can't stop aching. this pain is brand new.

the same pain i felt the day i found out yu was gone is the same pain i am feeling 4 months later. Steven, i just miss yu soo bad. i dont know why i cant find the strength in me to accept & be strong. i love yu so much & i always repeat that when i speak of yu because it's deep rooted love. & i ask God " why yu. why him? "; but it's something that will never be answered. but i swear to yu FOREVER will i cry for yu. FOREVER will this pain be here. & FOREVER will i love yu & miss yu w. all the will power, from the bottom of my heart. Rest in Peace Baby & send me the strength i need because yu & God know how tough it is thinking 'bout yu & not crying. . .