heavy thinking . . .
i was tryna sleep, but i just had to write. there's alot on my mind, lowkey. & these past few weeks have been a badd to a good life lesson. i'm learning & i'm maturing. there's many things ive taken in. & even though at the moment i was crying my eyes out; i see now i'm strong. i can't say never again, but next time i'll be stronger. wiser. & i will carry that " idgaf " attitude. just to the extreme, but to a point where i won't be fkd over. i understand i'ma natural born lover, but someday i'll be happy w. someone. as for now i guess i'm just meant to be living the single life. i've learned something & i'm trying to move on w. a smile. a loss is a loss, but i gained alot.
side notee-- this weekend was { wow! }, ahaha. my main leina got it going. she's back from new jersey & celebrating shard's graduation. as wells as, michaels. juanita. aj. & demontre's. friday was our chill day; never again am i seeing ' drag me to hell ' .. it's nasty! omg, i was dying on how niyi was clinching & gagging. saturday is unforgetable! i was gonnnnneeeeeeeeee. ahaha, mike's graduation was the business. i was feeling like i was on jordan & miller's tip. Vixen after party was good also. didn't blow { i'm not into that no more. :/ } & the Laker game at Dave & Busters was good. tomorrow is the last day of Fall session. i'm happy, but lazy to wake up earlier to be at finals at 73O. my birthday is in 3 days :D i'm sooo excited. still planning it out, so let's see how it goes.
but i'm doing a special SPECIAL birthday shout out to my honey Justin.
a negro w. a messican last name. ahaha, so we are the same age. & yu think yu can boss me around, but it aint happening. i want to thank yu from the bottom of my heart ceecee. i love yu so much for everything yuve done for me; for listening to my tears. & giving me the best advice ever. i know i was a big baby the past few weeks, but i'm strong now. & yu dont know wah yur presence means to me. thank yu thank yu thank yu! i love yu w. all my heart & hope yu get sauced up tonight. live it up babe; god bless.
good night blog.
hopefully, tomorrow is another
step on forgetting & forgiving. :-*