i'm dead to my feelings . dead to the person who i was before . before all the heart breaks , lies , put downs , hopeless inspirations of loving . i'm so good at being bad , & bad at being good . even when it's supposed to hurt it feels good . when i'm supposed to cry ; i laugh . when i'm supposed to fall on my knees ; i'm up , head high w. my middle finger up . so tell me , who could break a bitch like me ? no one . because i came into this earth alone & i'm gonna leave it the way i came in .