It's really early in the morning & I can't seem to fall back asleep. There is so much on my mind that it's starting to hurt. There's a choice I've taken to consideration, but so hard to follow through w'. My greatest problem is letting my heart take over my brain; sometimes the best thing in life is just doing something w'out letting your emotions get the best of you. I'm getting real tired of always giving someone another chance. & another. & another. I just wish for once I can be recognized for the person I am when it comes to other people's issues, likes, & morals. I sometimes find myself losing who I am to make other's happy. I don't ask for anything from other's so I realize I'm doing myself the damage. Because I'm choosing to remain in a situation that isn't making me happy. I bootle so much. I hide alot of my true feelings. Only to later on just completely break down. I can't keep going like this, I need to take a chance & just be me for once. I need to stop trying to make other's happy.