10 MORE weeks! 10 MORE WEEKS & Jaiden is here ")

I want him here now, but I want him to be inside a little longer. BUT I'm super anxious to see my son. I love you Jaiden; Daddy & I are waiting along w' a WHOOOLE lot of people :-*

It's really early in the morning & I can't seem to fall back asleep. There is so much on my mind that it's starting to hurt. There's a choice I've taken to consideration, but so hard to follow through w'. My greatest problem is letting my heart take over my brain; sometimes the best thing in life is just doing something w'out letting your emotions get the best of you. I'm getting real tired of always giving someone another chance. & another. & another. I just wish for once I can be recognized for the person I am when it comes to other people's issues, likes, & morals. I sometimes find myself losing who I am to make other's happy. I don't ask for anything from other's so I realize I'm doing myself the damage. Because I'm choosing to remain in a situation that isn't making me happy. I bootle so much. I hide alot of my true feelings. Only to later on just completely break down. I can't keep going like this, I need to take a chance & just be me for once. I need to stop trying to make other's happy.

72 Days to go...

Jaiden is doing so much moving; even as I write. It's no more kicks, but more like jabs & elbows. Like if he purposely glides his little body up against my stomach. LOL. It feels funny & it just makes me more anxious to see his little face already :D

On another note I am so thankful for Justin's mom. She's throwing me a Baby Shower (I would have never guessed) & my dad & I are planning a second one. Just to make it easy on both of the families. & more gifts! We have already bought Jaiden some clothes, well he has a lot, some-what. His crib is up & decorated. His has a swing. A rocker. A high chair. & some other little things I can't remember... he's already a spoiled one. I'm also looking for a photographer & a 3D place. I really wanna cherish & snap shot my first born & last for a minute. Haha, so I'ma continue the search & blog later. Toodles :*