Babe met the Family yesterday. Except, my Ruthless ass Dad, haha' he wasn't home. Black Friday w' him & my bro was tiring, but worth the lines & 6 hour shopping madness.
but since iwasn't able to say what iwas Grateful yesterday, here it goes;
- iam Grateful for my mom & dad. for being healthy & alive. for putting up w'
my shit at times. & espcially, my dad for never giving up on me & ALWAYS
finding himself at my side & understanding me when ifeel like iam lost & alone.
- for my 3 brothers who make my life so much funner. for being the 3 brother
everyone envies, lol. because they are Everything put into one & Everything ilove
to hate at times. for making me into this cold-hearted, sarcastic, & open eyed Woman.
- for my Loved One's aka "Friends"; Daja, Jasmin, Daniel, Daeon, Tashee, Raquel,
Shard, William, Westley, Carrington, Anthony, Darrick, Jaysun, Murss & for my Cute
Babies; Cami Bell, Kiely, & Jayshon. also, Jabari & Anthony. my heart goes to them &
their Family for not being able to spend yesterday w' their family, but soon they'll
be walking Free. & lastly, to the one's who have passed on. Steven imiss you each &
every FUCKING day. this is something iwill never let go of. Tj it's been 2 years now
since you left me, but you're still my baby & forever will i be at your side. Heaven
& Earth. for being there for me w' words or just their presence.
No Other's Can Top Them<3
- also for my Family who have seen me grow these past 19 years.
- & lastly God. he has givin me 19 years on this Earth & continues to Bless me.
for giving the people around me & me, also, good health.
Hope Everyone enjoyed their day.
isure did :)
11.27.2009
11.18.2009
Justin Lawrence Banks ,
you're my boyfriend. my bestfriend. my enemy.
ilove you for who you & who've you stayed as.
ilove you for the smiles & laughters you put
on my face. for the confusion & memories you
leave me once igo home. ilove you for the man
you've proved yourself to me- not w' words or
promises, but w' actions & feelings. baby, ilove
how you make me feel. free-spirited. care-free.
passionate. hopeful & semi complete because ifound
the woman who was missing out on loving once again.
a woman afraid to love, but now isee iam on this
Earth to feel pain. feel love. see change & see life.
as life was intended to live; passionately loving.
thank you daddy, for opening my eyes & opening my
heart once again. for being the one to show me all
that iwas missing out because of my insecurities.
loving isn't easy, but loving you & being loved by
you makes it all worth the while. even when we don't
see eye to eye & disagree iknow you the one iwant to
be mad at. the one i cuss the fk out. the one iwant to
just rib the hell out of because you know me to well.
so all the anger is worth it at the end. iget to have
your kisses. your eyes. your lips. your touch.your hugs.
my favorite smell you leave behind. & your heart. it's
ALL mine & iam all your's . . . DEV103109TED to you :-*
ps: iadmire you for waiting on me for almost 3 months :x
iwas just afraid of not being a good girlfriend.
X.XXI.IX
ilove you for who you & who've you stayed as.
ilove you for the smiles & laughters you put
on my face. for the confusion & memories you
leave me once igo home. ilove you for the man
you've proved yourself to me- not w' words or
promises, but w' actions & feelings. baby, ilove
how you make me feel. free-spirited. care-free.
passionate. hopeful & semi complete because ifound
the woman who was missing out on loving once again.
a woman afraid to love, but now isee iam on this
Earth to feel pain. feel love. see change & see life.
as life was intended to live; passionately loving.
thank you daddy, for opening my eyes & opening my
heart once again. for being the one to show me all
that iwas missing out because of my insecurities.
loving isn't easy, but loving you & being loved by
you makes it all worth the while. even when we don't
see eye to eye & disagree iknow you the one iwant to
be mad at. the one i cuss the fk out. the one iwant to
just rib the hell out of because you know me to well.
so all the anger is worth it at the end. iget to have
your kisses. your eyes. your lips. your touch.your hugs.
my favorite smell you leave behind. & your heart. it's
ALL mine & iam all your's . . . DEV103109TED to you :-*
ps: iadmire you for waiting on me for almost 3 months :x
iwas just afraid of not being a good girlfriend.
X.XXI.IX
11.09.2009
iam super irritated to the point where ijust wanna cry;
idispise how ignorant people can be; Especially the WHITE RACE. iwas googling Jabari's court updates & they had his court matters & news report on some website called Topix.com so as iam reading all these ignorant cunts are talking 'bout " ya'll should hang them " .. " look at their names you dont have to guess wah race they are " .. all kinds of racist shit. & that hit a nerve! because iam someone who doesnt watch the news or reads the newspaper. idont believe in the goverment because in this world the only thing that shines is the Negativity. so for some fuckin low lives, non working, computer screen junkies to comment on a issue that doesn't concern them is pathetic. it's not 'bout the race or area all this happened. SHIT HAPPENS everywhere; from the smallest town to the biggest & most populated cities, SHIT HAPPENS. ihope people really do start educating themselves, but away from classroom books & internet postings.
& it's still.. FREE JABARI!
idispise how ignorant people can be; Especially the WHITE RACE. iwas googling Jabari's court updates & they had his court matters & news report on some website called Topix.com so as iam reading all these ignorant cunts are talking 'bout " ya'll should hang them " .. " look at their names you dont have to guess wah race they are " .. all kinds of racist shit. & that hit a nerve! because iam someone who doesnt watch the news or reads the newspaper. idont believe in the goverment because in this world the only thing that shines is the Negativity. so for some fuckin low lives, non working, computer screen junkies to comment on a issue that doesn't concern them is pathetic. it's not 'bout the race or area all this happened. SHIT HAPPENS everywhere; from the smallest town to the biggest & most populated cities, SHIT HAPPENS. ihope people really do start educating themselves, but away from classroom books & internet postings.
& it's still.. FREE JABARI!
11.05.2009
ihaven't wrote in a minute.. life has been so hextic for the past month or so;
full of ups & downs. full of laughters & stressful moments- imiss the fuck out of Jabari, but iam going to prove to him iam his ride or die. god knows he means a lot to me & iam gonna be here for him every step of the way. no matter if it takes months to see him walk free, iam here for him. work is stressing w' working soo many hours & tryna make time for me :/ & yess! Steven is still on my mind & heart heavily. but iam trying to ride all this out. iam staying positive & iwill continue to keep my head high. i'll try to write more often, promise :-*
ps: GIANNI, where are you? :'(
imiss you & ihope you're doing fine.
Freeeeee Jabari.
full of ups & downs. full of laughters & stressful moments- imiss the fuck out of Jabari, but iam going to prove to him iam his ride or die. god knows he means a lot to me & iam gonna be here for him every step of the way. no matter if it takes months to see him walk free, iam here for him. work is stressing w' working soo many hours & tryna make time for me :/ & yess! Steven is still on my mind & heart heavily. but iam trying to ride all this out. iam staying positive & iwill continue to keep my head high. i'll try to write more often, promise :-*
ps: GIANNI, where are you? :'(
imiss you & ihope you're doing fine.
Freeeeee Jabari.
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