been away-

mk, so i've been away.

haven't written in a minute.
updates: nothing really.

life is blah right now.
nothing e x c i t i n g.
just smmmoooottthhhh.

hope yu guys enjoyed the holidays w. the family.
i did :] & well new years is 3 days away-
as well as denis' 3rd birthday.
baby is getting older.

christmass eve-

it's today! :]
excited, but it's not the same joy
as it was when i was younger. anyways:
ima spend it w. the fam. & i hope to see
jasmin tomorrow to give her the gift i
bought her.

& OMGG! she is the bestest friend i could
have asked for. she got me my purse(cheetah print!)
& also gonna pay for my lipe piercing.
my mom payed for my hair & nail.
so ima looking cyyuutteee today.

so, that's it for this blog.

MEERRRYYY CCHHRRIIISSTTMMMAASSSSS to everyone!
be happy. safe. & thankful.

love yu all<3

my idol-

i was talking to we$ly today & i mentioned
to him how my idol was Beyonce. (i adore her!)
& well he told me that in the bible it said
something 'bout not having an idol. i really
don't know wah he meant. he then said something
about me going to church: but honestly, & w. no
disrespect, my church & god is in my heart, mind
& soul. i dont need to go to no church to show i
am a follower of Gods word's. HE is thee only one who
knows where i stand, & that is beside him.

anyways..
i was watching Beyonce in concert on teevee
& she made me tear up. especially, w. danegeriously
in love. she gave me the goosebumps. no lie!
haha. but i honestly can say i am proud to have
an idol as fierce, loving, most beautiful, respected
woman like- Beyonce.

count down beqins. half way point;

6 months exactly till my 19 birthday!

sheesh, am i qettine old. :/ i remember just last yr when i wished i was 18. & look at me now. all bad. i don't wanna grow old.

chanqes.

life is chanqinq.
i am chanqinq.
to a better that is.

i've been to hell & back. heaven on earth. it feels qood to finally know i am a woman. level headed. w. a qood head on my shoulders. ive learned to love. live. & leave. leave those thinqs that hold me back, hurt me, confuse me, & tarnish me. i'm thankful i have qone throuqh bullshit; because NOW i am stronqer & wiser. in the moment of time i wished i wasn't on earth, but as time chanqes i chanqe w. it & i open my eyes to the liqht. i'm excited for the holidays. & for a new year. i know ima have some rocky moments, but i will read back & reminice & know i will qet throuqh this, heart. soul. & all.

OH & IT'S DECEMBER 1st JUST NOTICED ;
i'm excited for the new year . excited for a new life . excited w. livinq my life . i've qotten rid of people i dont need , finally . & ima keep it that way . my mom & i have been talkinq some what . my parents surprised me w. my bed set & old room stuff at my dads house . since when i qot kicked out her house she kept them . so hopefully this means ima be a better person . denis is turning 3 on january 1st . he makes my heart melt . i love him to death . i qot my car , STILL no job but ima manaqe .

so life is fkn :
W O N D E R F U L (:

& as far as friends , we still strongg . my mamas is doinq qood in her preqnancy . jasmin qot a job . & daniel is beinq daniel .


so this is my life ..
living .

breathinq .

strivinq .

B E I N G .